starting gait

I have been feeling excited/anxious about life.  My going to work for the Franciscans is not happening fast enough.  I feel like I am on the starting block and no one is firing the pistol.  God is teaching me patience.  I promised God I would go to daily mass when I am able.  I am learning His ways.  He is teaching me to put aside MY ways.  That is so dang hard.  Was that hard for Eve to do in the Garden?  Was that hard for Adam to do in the Garden?  We are all so much like our original parents.  We want to be like God, but we want to do it OUR way.  God says NO, you will do it my way, but he is gentle enough to whisper and nudge.  He never forces anything on us.  He just gently leads us back to the starting gait one more time and says-- WAIT FOR THE SHOT sweetie.